You’ve got to reach bedrock to become depressed enough before you are forced to accept the reality and enormity of the problem.
I have schizophrenia. I am not schizophrenia. I am not my mental illness. My illness is a part of me.
How simple it is to acknowledge that all the worry in the world could not control the future. How simple it is to see that we can only be happy now, and that there will never be a time when it is not now.
What if you had such severe schizophrenia that your life was just one hallucination after another? And what if people kept trying to drag you back out of those hallucinations, to prove that you weren't living in reality and that reality was nothing more than a psych hospital? Would you go?