Every time he left, I shattered apart.

I'm not blaming you," he stated firmly. "I'm just trying to think. God, Kate, there are times when I think you hate me. When I think you would do anything to get rid of me. And then... then there's last night. And all of the other times like it. I have never been more alive than when I'm with you.

Our relationship was toxic. He was slowly poisoning me. I was slowly poisoning him.

!I0m not blaming you," he stated firmly. "I'm just trying to think. God, Kate, there are times when I think you hate me. When I think you would do anything to get rid of me. And then... there's last night. And all of the other times like it. I have never been more alive than when I'm with you.

We're a mess, Kate.

I thought we were perfect for each other.""There's no such thing as perfect," Eli commiserated.