You have intellect, and courage, and command. Play your own game, and don't worry about what anyone else is doing. That is what's going to give you a shot at making it. Comparing yourself to anyone else will just drive you crazy.

I feel rather a fool writing down my thoughts

It is my last night here, and I suddenly feel quite tearful, sitting up in my usual window.

These are hard memories, and I will save the rest of the story for another time.

On Christmas morning, Rebecca lost her moral virginity, her sense of humor - and her two best friends. But, other than that, it was a hell of a holiday.