But there is one part of this that hurts. The carefree, normal part. The part of me that was lost when we first moved and that I'll never get back.

What? You mean this crap shack isn't part of the Four Seasons. Shocking.

Rules for Disappearing by Witness Protection Prisoner #18A7R04M: Don’t fall into a routine. Shake things up. Doing the same thing over and over makes you feel comfortable. And feeling comfortable is bad.