I really like you better aimless and lost among people, a little crazy, oddball, not looking like yourself. So that I don't know you at all and the nearer I get to you the more you separate yourself from me-- I get dizzy trying to follow you and I have to work really hard-- and that's what I want!

And I withdrew into myself when I understood that they wanted to extract every thought in my head, one by one, like decayed teeth.